Monday, August 30, 2010


Reading life too much,
Loving things too much,
Holding on so hard it hurts,
Wanting my own way too much,
All I want from 
Love and life and happiness and
Screaming in my head too much,
Ignoring peace in silence.

Monday, August 23, 2010

Sometimes I Dream in Faerie Tales

Sometimes I dream in Faerie tales.
Not "fairy tales" but
Faerie tales.
Not idealistic Disney dreams about
Prince Charming and
happy all the time.
Not the fake, simplified spelling of
"fairy" but the
complicated devastating world of
Faerie where not everything is
Black and white and easy fixes.
A Faerie tale is a tale of Faerie.
Of Faerie separated from our world.
Where humans love the Faerie girls
who have no reason to love them back
Of Selkies who will always leave.
Of the Fey who never stay.
A place outside our understanding,
Mortal limits, and our time.
Sometimes I dream in Faerie tales,
Where happy endings are rarely written
But where the truth resides.
The truth of love that conquers all.
If only for a time.
The truth of courage and of wit.
The love of nature and the loss of human
Sometimes I dream in Faerie tales.
One day I won't wake up.


Monday, August 16, 2010


it's the family members who aren't there
that seem to 
define you
Even more than 
the ones who still breath in and out 
beside you every day
The single mother
Child sans a father
Brother who's an only child
Read beyond the lines and 
look between the photographs
what isn't there

Sunday, August 15, 2010

The Wii & I (or, Me & the Wii, but that's grammatically incorrect)

     Acting on Neil Gaiman's advice, via @AdviceToWriters on Twitter, to use my blog for talking (technically impossible without turning it into a vlog, but he's Neil Gaiman and I'm not going to disagree.  No, that was not a disagreement in and of itself.  Shoosh.  I'm talking.) I thought I'd share something funny I learned about myself yesterday.

     I suck at Super Mario Bros.

     Just blatantly, out and out suck like a kid with a popsicle on a summer day.  It's embarrassing.  I actually thought to myself as I died for the third time at the hands of the first turtle-shelled duck creature to appear on the first level of the first world: it's a good thing nobody's here to see this.  And it really was.  After wasting three lives on the first duck turtle and one on the second scowling brown mushroom, I ejected the game disc and switched to Looney Tunes.  

     At least I made it to a checkpoint on that one.

     Thank heavens I rented these games first.  I figured I should see if I actually liked playing them before spending forty or fifty dollars to buy one because the pictures on the back of the case made the game look like fun.  So, Super Mario Bros. and Looney Tunes Acme Arsenal: outskies.  Next up: Super Mario Galaxy and Super Mario Galaxy 2.  Hm.  I did purchase the Alice in Wonderland game, and so far I'm doing much better with that one.

     It gives me on-screen instructions.

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Like a Poem

This piece tied for fifth place in the online short story contest at  The second installment, "A Vampire Kissed Future," is currently tied for third place in the second round of voting.  All reviews and votes are appreciated, and I also love comments!  There was a lot of positive feedback for this story -- and several good responses to the continuation so far -- so I've decided to keep the work alive here on my blog as something of a serial.  Voting for round two concludes August 31st, and again, I love feedback!  And votes.  Really like votes.  ;)  You might also enjoy the separate piece I have up at the contest, "The Vampire Kissed Alone."  Check it out, see what you think.  Anyway, I'm growing ever fonder of the two characters in this first story, especially my heroine, which is why I've decided to keep their tale going.  I hope you enjoy it as much as I do.

He was in the poetry section, a book in his hands.  Cassidy’s hand froze in the middle of sliding Hamlet from the bookshelf.  She would have expected him to be stronger looking.  Instead, he was slender and only slightly tall, maybe six inches above her five foot four.  His longish brown hair was neatly combed, dark where it brushed against his egg white skin.  His glasses were old-fashioned tortoiseshell.  She wondered if they were supposed to be a disguise, something to make him seem more human.  A collared dress shirt peeked indigo stripes from beneath a thin cappuccino sweater.  The jeans fit perfectly, tailored all the way to his pointed toe leather shoes.  His profile was lovely, square jaw and strong nose, high cheekbones.  Cassidy took a deep breath and, Hamlet in hand, strolled over to join him.
She could see him glance over as she pretended to scan the titles on the shelf.  Trying to ignore him, she stretched up to the shelf above her head, her auburn hair falling back over her shoulders as she did.  Normally there was a step stool she could stand on to reach for her favorites, but it had disappeared.  Lucky for her.  Chilled white fingers brushed hers as she tried to grasp the book.  She looked up, eyes widening a little.  Up close, she could see his red eyes behind the glasses.
“Millay is lovely,” he said, offering her the collection with a small smile.
His fangs flashed between his lips as he spoke.
Cassidy smiled back.  “One of the best.  Thanks.”
He nodded his head, turning to lean his back against the shelf as he returned to his book.  Cassidy looked at the title.
“Billy Collins?” she asked, curious.
The vampire looked up again, his smile broader this time.  His eyes were jarring in his chiseled face, but Cassidy decided she liked the effect.
“One of my favorites,” he told her, seeming genuinely happy to talk about it.  “I love modern poetry.”
“Really?  You seem like such a classics sort of guy.”
     Cassidy tucked her hair behind her ear, letting herself relax into the gentle flirting.  It wasn’t often she felt bold enough to approach a man.  Bad relationships had convinced her she wasn’t worth the attention.  The vampire’s response was soothing those old fears.
He chuckled at her assessment.  “If I had a dime,” he said rolling his eyes.  “Truth be told, I hate rhymes, except for one poet.”
“Who’s that?” Cassidy asked, letting herself grin at him.  Thank heavens she had put on a little makeup to highlight her ocean colored eyes and fair skin before making her late night bookstore run.
The vampire leaned over.  “Dr. Seuss,” he whispered in her ear.
Cassidy burst into laughter, putting a hand over her mouth to quiet her giggles.  The vampire leaned back again and grinned down at her.  He gave her an up and down as she looked back at the books.  Cassidy noticed and was glad she looked decent in her green cowl neck sweater and black leggings.
“Would you mind handing me that E. E. Cummings, please?” she asked, pointing.
The vampire obliged, sliding his long fingers along her wrist as he passed her the requested book.  Goose bumps ran along Cassidy’s arm at his deliberate touch.
“Sorry,” the vampire murmured, still stroking her wrist.  “My hands are a little cold.”
“No, I didn’t even notice,” Cassidy murmured back.
The vampire smiled as he looked down at his fingers sliding along her skin.  “Your heart is beating very fast,” he told her.
Cassidy cleared her throat.  “What?”
He tapped the veins on the inside of her wrist.  “I can see it.”
There was a sudden roar of terror inside Cassidy’s ears.  What had she been thinking, coming over to flirt with a vampire?  He wasn’t thinking she looked pretty, he was thinking she looked tasty.  In all the wrong ways.
The vampire seemed to sense her distress.  He looked back up at her face, his expression instantly turning contrite.
“Forgive me,” he said, sounding genuinely abashed.  He let go of her wrist.  “I’ve ruined our conversation.  I didn’t mean to frighten you.”
“No, it’s fine,” Cassidy said, trying to talk past the dryness in her throat.  She gave him a shaky smile.  “What were we talking about?”
“I think we stopped somewhere around Dr. Seuss,” he replied, giving her a grateful smile.
“One fish, two fish,” she quipped.
The vampire’s grin returned.  He looked at the books she was holding.
“Hamlet?” he asked.  “Are you a fan of tragedy?”
“I’m a fan of beauty,” she corrected.
He cocked his head at her.  “I thought most humans only liked stories with happy endings.”
“Well, I’m not most humans,” Cassidy informed him.  “I don’t believe in happy endings.”
He was silent for a moment, studying her so intently that she had to look down at the books in her hand.  He set his book on the shelf.
“I am used to such sadness in my existence,” he said softly.  “But to hear it from someone as young as you…”  He shook his head.  “What are you called?”
“Cassidy Campbell.”
He smiled.  There were his fangs again.  “Of course you like poetry.  Such alliteration.”
He took her face in his hands.
“What are you doing?” she whispered.
“Giving you a happy ending.”
His kiss was like being kissed by a poem.  Cassidy closed her eyes and gave in to it, her books still held between them.  Finally he pulled away, his chest still as Cassidy caught her breath.  He planted a brief kiss on her nose and her lips again.
“You are mortal, Cassidy Campbell.  That is your happy ending,” he murmured, voice wistful and sad.
She met his eyes as he gazed at her.  With a last smile he let her go and walked away.
Cassidy stared after him for a moment.  She turned back to look where he had stood.   The step stool was sitting there.

Monday, August 9, 2010


I once dreamed of a man
Who killed people 
With needles.
I tipped a glass and it slid
onto my hand.
Shiny and scary.
I was responsible for 
solving the crime,
Exposing the 
I was disturbed,
when I scared myself 
by the strange responsibility
placed on myself
The burden of 
fixing it All.
And now I am free,
but who will check the glasses 
for the silent sliver?
I have left the 
roaming free.


Thursday, August 5, 2010

Celebration - Round Two

     As promised (although my follow through has been delayed, a thousand apologies [but not a thousand paper cranes, because that covers an entirely different scenario, and I can't think of a wish I want granted at the moment, except maybe a snow cone, but I can get one of those easily enough without learning how to make one paper crane, let alone folding a thousand] for said delay, but I'm following through now, so leave me be) this is a special blog post to celebrate the completion of the second draft of my novel Slayer.  You've heard (read) me talking (Tweeting, Facebooking, but if you insert these media-age verbs, change the previous "me" to "my" because I just don't do that pirate speak thing) about this novel, noticed my mentions of funny things my characters have done to me (I resorted to an unsuccessful bout of fist shaking at one point.  It even earned some retweets.) and I have shared a short paragraph (my favorite) from the novel in a previous blog post (celebrating the fact that I finished the book), but I haven't shared very much about what the novel is actually about (except for the small description I gave in my blog post on cursing [notice all of the teasers I'm giving you to direct you to my previous blog posts ;) ] ).  So, to celebrate the completed second draft, and the first third of the third draft (haha, numbers), I am sharing here, exclusively on my blog (because there's no other place to share it, really) the blurb (that's what I'm calling the portion of text I want to appear on the back cover of the book once it's published) for Slayer.  Without further ado (or parenthetical asides), I'd like to introduce you (okay, I lied) to my protagonist, Clarise, and my novel, (and you thought I was done) Slayer:

  It works a little like the old video game "Grand Theft Auto."  The more bodies I rack up, the more points I get.  But I play with the part of the game "Grand Theft Auto" never touches.  No matter how many points I get, at the end of the day, there's still a really big pile of bodies.

     We are the best.  We are ruthless.  We are lethal.  Pity is a thing despised in my world.  I only offer what I am given. 

     They call us Slayers, like the fabled vampire slayers.  In principle, it works the same.  I dispose of the bloodsuckers, the leeches, the men and women who want nothing more than to suck the earth dry for their own enjoyment.  It's incredible the things men will do for power.      Even more incredible the things they will do to stay in power.

There are thirty-nine of us now.  There would have been forty, but Nathan was killed.  Twenty-five work the desks, the admin.  That leaves thirteen of us as Slayers.  There should be fourteen, but Nathan died.  

     None of us has died before.


Monday, August 2, 2010


You don't realize how much you
Until you let it go.
It's not such a 
part of you
until it's        only
Until you stop breathing
because it's not 
I hate the final 
Hate the silence
left by 
Doesn't matter if you're
when someone else says